Originally posted by Dupek Chakra:
A very libertarian view. You talk the talk.
But still, I think you're a rather twisted individual. No offense. But I'm thinking you get off on other's shocked opinions vis your appearance..? I also wonder what you will find shocking about youth culture thirty years from now when you're off the shelf?
i know this is just bait, but i have a few quick thoughts:
you are entitled to your opinions, and i take no offense. i only allow the opinions of a very few people to have any impact on my world and my feelings, and you're nowhere near that short list. you know no more about me than what i have shared here, which is essentially nothing. why should i be offended by what a stranger thinks about me? in the same vein, why should i "get off" on what a stranger thinks about me?
my motivations for my choices regarding my body are purely internal, and have nothing to do with anyone but myself. if everyone in the world looked like me, i'd do what i do. if i was the only one in the world that looked like me, i'd do what i do. i accept the consequences of my choices, which include a great deal of attention from strangers, but i definitely do not do what i do because of that. if it makes me twisted to be true to myself, then i'm twisted.
if you had any concept of the amount of attention i draw on a daily basis, you would realize that there's no way anyone could "get off" on it. i once tried to keep a diary of every time someone pointed, whispered, stared, asked a question, or any such thing. after about two hours and over 100 entries, i stopped. and that was just out running errands. on a night at work, it would be impossible to keep track. that's what i get, and that's fine with me. some days i would rather blend in and avoid that attention, but i have no regrets.
i believe that in order to have meaningful relationships with other people, you must first be true to yourself. if i denied or suppressed my drive to modify my body, i would be basing everything else in my life on lies.
"i never wanted to be different. i just wanted to be me."