I am an angry person . . . always have been. I feel it's origination comes from me having to deal with being gay; having to hide it; having to hear people's treatment of gay people since I was a small kid. I knew I was gay in the fourth grade, and by then I had already been told gay people will burn in hell, at church. it really turned me into a ball of internal fury. I understand the hatred of black people towards white people; the hatred from the past is hard to let go in the present. it can eat you alive.
then . . . my anger turned into a life of never feeling as if, I was doing enough. "this, is all I have accomplished?" my job life over the past 20 to 30 years, really was a black hole of going nowhere, and I knew I had something to give, but I couldn't give it, and I didn't know how to change myself. Then, I got lucky, and fell into a job that I love, and that people respect and act as if you are someone important. For the first time in my life . . . I feel like a successful human being.
I am trying to forget my past and let go of anger . . . but again, it is hard. thank you, for your concern.
The, end.
Then, you have my mental issues. I don't like people most of the time; they really piss me off with their shear stupidity towards each other and the human race in general. I feel like so many people are so self centered and don't want to save this planet we are on.
