you know . . . i actually contemplated leaving this here forum for good. once and for all. god. i yelled and basically "internerd threatened" some total stranger . . . based on what? what he/she thinks, what he/she feels. that is their right to have their mind think that. the mind is so great, and i never question it. i should fucking respect that. i would expect the same. who the fuck am i to tell someone else that they are wrong and i am write, wait, right? this place here, this nine thirty club forum i have posted on for years . . . good night, that long? really, since then? it changes you as a person, laugh if you want, but it does. you come here as a joke, a try to fit in; you stay until you choke on the fucking shit coming out of your hands. sometimes i wish i was perfect. sometimes i wish saying "sorry" to the person i should say it to, didnt seem like some bullshit cop out.
no wonder people self medicate.